"...Peter ...walked on the water to go to Jesus.  But when he saw the wind was boisterous, he was afraid..."  Mathew 14:29-30

Here is something from "My Utmost for His Highest"  by Oswald Chambers.

http://utmost.org/keep-recognizing-jesus/

"If you debate for even one second when God has spoken, it is all over for you. Never start to say, “Well, I wonder if He really did speak to me?” Be reckless immediately— totally unrestrained and willing to risk everything— by casting your all upon Him. You do not know when His voice will come to you, but whenever the realization of God comes, even in the faintest way imaginable, be determined to recklessly abandon yourself, surrendering everything to Him. It is only through abandonment of yourself and your circumstances that you will recognize Him. You will only recognize His voice more clearly through recklessness— being willing to risk your all."

I don't believe in being reckless so this is a stretch for me.  But I want to follow Jesus completely.

Dave C

November 7th 2014

Day 5 in the DR.

Struggling with doubt.   Why am I so surprised?

Struggle builds character, so it has been said.  Perhaps I have not struggled enough.  I thought that if I trusted God and believed in Him he would direct my steps.  This is what it says in the Bible;

 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”  Proverbs 3:5-6

I have tried to do this yet at the moment my paths seem a confusion of blind alleyways, and a maze that leads ????.  Have I been fooling myself?  Am I lazy?  Or stupid?  

However I am not at the end of the path yet and listening to my own understanding rather than trusting Him is what causes me to worry.  

I will continue to trust in Him for He is faithful.  I will wait for His direction to guide me.  He has put the Holy Spirit in me as He promised.  I will not give up.

Dave Chapman